So I know I've been pretty bad about writing on here, but life has been hectic. I went to the Dominican Republic with a friend and enjoyed myself so much I didn't want to come back. I've been on a few dates, mostly from eharmony, and haven't really been satisfied with any of them.
Today I had a lunch date with a very nice guy who would like to see me again. Unfortunately, there was no attraction whatsoever. And maybe that's okay right now, but I know what I want and what I don't want. If I could see it going anywhere, I would continue, but I see a friendship developing with a nice guy which is perfectly fine.
Simply put, people, I'm tired. I've been so worried about not getting dates that I'm doing these online services and matchmakers and I'm tired. I'm worn out from trying to make things work that maybe shouldn't work out. It's time to let go and just let life take me where it wants to. It's okay for me to be single for a while and if the One comes along while I'm out with friends or doing an activity I enjoy, than maybe that's the way it's meant to be. Internet dating is fine and dandy, but sometimes you just need to go back to the old fashioned way, you know?
The weirdest thing is that this time of my life is one of my happiest. I have a freedom that I couldn't have attained if life had turned out differently. I love who I am and that's good enough for me. At some point, I have to accept life and go on with it. Get busy living, or get busy dying, right?
So, I may write in here occasionally, but I'm a lot more focused on what I want instead of what everyone else wants for me. I'm going to focus on my fiction and finishing the novel I've had on my computer for a year. Right now, that's my dream and that's okay. Accepting that is hard but it's what I need right now. So if the elusive ONE is out there, he will wait for me to finish my novel and he will come along exactly when I need him to. All I have to do is have a little faith in the universe and a lot of faith in me.
